Over and done

I passed year one!

Not in a good way, though.

Don't know how i should be feeling right now. In a way, i guess... it's good i didn't put my hopes too high for i know it's going to just be a huge disappointment if it doesn't happen. True enough, it didn't. It still hit me because i didn't expect it to be this way either.

I know i'm not good enough... and probably, never.

So if you are kind enough, don't leave words to comfort me or to ask what happened.

I need to get a break and get away from all these shit.