I love to rant

Ohmigosh. I just feel like fainting/puking right now. I'm feeling so uneasy and my heart's beating really hard + loud.

Why, you ask?

Because results will be out tomorrow!

Yes, this is me. This is how i feel everytime my results are due to be released.

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Sony called me - in a very last minute fashion. I drove myself down to klcc today just to collect my camera. It was a pathetic sight seeing this lonely girl chomping down her caesar salad @ dome in a corner. It was also very pitiful because the girl had to drive home herself when it was pouring so heavily - up until it was zero visibility, i say?

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I am not ashamed to rant about how i hate certain people in my family (extended, mind you). I hate them so much that i don't wish to be associated with them in any single fucking way. It's so pathetic of me to actually pull a smile when i see them, to act all nice and holy in front of them.

These people come to my grandma's house (where my parents + lil sis stay - the three of us live next door - complicated story), plop their ass on the dining chairs and dig in freely to the food on the dining table. You stupid or what? Never use brains a bit wan. You sit down and eat to your heart's content, without realising that it's my grandma's lunch/dinner or better, our lunch/dinner. You finish the fish, you finish the sambal, you finish whatever you like... without realising that the stuff you're eating were paid for by my parents?? It doesn't mean that when you come to visit ah mah, and that this is where she stays, you can act as if you own the place. Show some fucking manners lah. Just because my parents have to pay for every damn thing, doesn't mean you can eat/use it just because you're not paying for it, ok?

You complain that we're not at home to layan the old woman. You laugh off complaints when we tell you someone's being hard. You call up to give us commands on what to do to the old woman. You come for an hour's visit and you think it's damn fucking grand when we have to face her 24-7. You come over to stay when we're away and you complain there's not enough food in the fridge - never use your brains again is it? Your mother also eating. Why don't you bring some food and stop complaining for once? Hello, my grandmother has like a dozen kids and a gadzillion grandchildren. If you like to complain, why don't you bring her to stay with you? Why don't you come by for more visits?

I'm so sick of people treating my parents as though they're slaves - especially my mum. You don't just call up and start telling her what to do. She's not her daughter and neither is she the only daughter-in-law. You will never know the hardships we face at home. You think we're fibbing. You think we're exaggerating. It's so hard to even get away for some family-time/holiday. If you guys can fly all over the world whenever you guys wish, why can't we? This gets funnier when the truth is, dad isn't the oldest in the family. It's funny how he, being the youngest, has to do everything. You think it's fun coming home to hear someone nag/ask questions/shout non-stop for attention?!

Bottom line is, i love everyone in my family. I am blessed to have them as relatives. However, i'm not happy at how things are handled when it comes to this issue.

And to the ones i dislike - SPECIFICALLY my 4th aunt's daughter-in-law and granddaughter, please don't come for visits la. If you wanna come, stop eating our food. Stop finishing all the food that's left for us/grandma. Think about our feelings. Teach your kid manners. Teach her not to simply go into people's room and make a wreck outta it. Best of all, shut the fuck up.
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I also read on claire's blog about a certain issue, and i feel compelled to comment on it.

I feel it is time people stop discussing about the way women dress. It is extremely childish to put the blame on women. Take a look at other places: Women are free to dress however they wish and nothing happens. In melbourne, no one cares how you are dressed. Some people are so scantily-clad, yet, seldom you hear/read about rape cases. We are living in a modern world and we can dress according to what we like. There's no need to cover up and bla bla bla. The rate you are going on about this will only make people dislike you more and run off to other places where this dressing issue is not a big deal at all.

If you want to attract more FDIs and compete against other countries, stop bickering and stop playing *certain* issues. You have to be flexible. You have to be OPEN-MINDED. At the rate you are going on about dressing up and censoring tv shows - or better, banning irrelevant books, you will only be moving backwards instead of forward, like china, india and vietnam.

It makes me so *geram* reading certain articles on the newspaper daily. It makes me think, "wtf is happening?"
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So sorry for the sudden outburst of rage and emo-ness. I simply cannot help it. If you happen to be a relative of mine and you read about it, please take it light-heartedly as i'm not talking about you - i'm only speaking the truth. I guess everyone can see that. It's from my point of view about what i see, about what i feel. And if you so happen to be some big shot, i'm sorry but that's my humble opinion about certain things.

Whatever it is, i feel so unwell now because of everything and anything.

I'm off for holiday tomorrow, so i guess i'll only be back after monday.

Till then, have a nice day everybody!