Joy

ONE down, three to go.

*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

When half the world is already celebrating the end of exams - out attending parties and enjoying themselves, here i am, stuck in melbourne nerding out, getting all stressed up, feeling like i'm some society's outcast (for not attending any "parties") and then not being able to sleep at night. A rush of negativity is running through my head now and it really doesn't help much when you are being surrounded by highly intellectual people. It intimidates me greatly when i hear people talk about the subjects, when they discuss their marks... simply because i feel i'm not and never good enough. It constantly disturbs me whenever i feel this inferior. It makes me feel stupid (although i admit, i am rather...) and being kiasu really isn't me or my cup of tea. However, you get this shitty pressure inside you and the feeling is just horrible. I don't know if anyone of you out there will get/understand what i'm saying, but i think it's just me. I tend to pressure myself and i guess it's due to perfectionism. In the end, all i get are sleepless nights and some shitty negative feelings in me day in and day out.

Fucking hate exams.

On a brighter note, i'm done with macro for now.

Introductory Macroeconomics
Accounting Transactions and Analysis - 9th Nov
Finance 101 - 14th Nov
Business Process Analysis (most anal subject. E.V.E.R.) - 17th Nov